Its 2009!!! A new year for me (pretty obvious) a new life hope it's better for me, new challenging year i am brave enough! i guess it's my LUCKY year for me...

Sometimes i missed my old life before, i always do want i wanted to do like chatting, going to school, talking with my friends so loud, go drunk, puff some cigar, doing somewhere, watching the face of my boyfriend, doing silly,  watch the sunset and sex with my lovers but all that come to end. Now, all change "I quit" and its a big loss to me when i became a mom. And I am a single mom i have no husband or the father of my child he left me when i was 3months pregnant. I struggle from my past and i keep my self to be strong and i knew i was brave to face it all. I cried so much but it doesn't mean that i am coward if i am coward and not gonna make it and not typing my blog, right? Im just tired i wanted go to sleep and not awake. you know what i am just pretending. People lie... Im sick! for god sake! i keep emoting when im lonely i wanted to have job but im not qualified. I wanted to go school but my mom told me marry a foriegner and i told my dad that i want to go back to school but i cant coz his have no job. i always get mad and i wanna kick my sister face she's a ugly pig slut! she made my life meresable bcoz of her i sacrifice.